How does it feel to be in a closet? To be invisible? How does it feel to not have a voice? To be called a joke, a threat, a freak? Disconcerting, isn’t it? That’s why I keep insisting, we should move and must settle outside India. A place where we can live without fear & prejudice.
But, I do not wish to choose the life of an exile! We will carve our own little niche, here, in this very country.
How can you not understand me? I want us to be more than just “living together”. I want access to all basic human rights. I want us to have a family, kids, dogs, you and me, darling. I want all this and much more for us. Uff! I wish I could make you see the future I envisage for us.
Oh ho baby, I would want to raise our kids here, in India.
Don’t be funny, it would be no different there.
It would be. I wouldn’t even know how to relate to my own child! I would be an alien to the language, education system and to the very world they would be growing in! No matter how much I learn of that culture; it would never be enough. We will always remain aloof from each other.’
But aren’t we responsible adults? We will give them a quality life, a well deserved life. I will really try hard to make it all work, I promise. Please, help me with this.
Really? And how would they relate to the historical evidence of our reality? Don’t you see there is just so much more to you and me than what our eyes can see? It would be like leading a split life.
I don’t want to exist between lines.
We always will… No matter which side of the line we are.