I wasn't happy in the relationship though I know no one can love me more than she does.
Are you gay, lesbian, straight? What if you are neither and are unsure, confused and or questioning where you fit in today’s labelled environment?
……. in human sexual behaviour, is the practice of casual sex with multiple sexual partners.
Going from lovers to friends however is a whole different story. There is no time frame that can be set to this.
Have you asked yourself what it was that the men, you have dated, couldn't give you and left an emptiness, where women have been able to fill that? It could be useful to understand the gaps and the needs to be able to identify this.
Helping others always seems easier than looking at your own situation objectively. What I’m reading is that you want to do the same for your partner but don’t know how, that is perfectly normal but you can’t be objective in this situation.
Normally we judge individuals or have at least an opinion about them within the first 3 to 5 seconds but it seems that you give people a chance before making up your mind.
Parents always want what is best for their children that does however, not always mean that they agree with what the children want to do or achieve.
I guess your story and what you are struggling with is about communication and conflict. Communication, which 90% is non-verbal.
I agree with you that it is the right thing to do - not to marry a straight girl and I agree that it will make both of you very miserable.
The battle that you seem to have is between two parts of your ‘self’, your old You (Desi-you) and your new You (Gay-you).