I don’t know when exactly I realized that being bisexual was different. I think I sort of assumed that everyone was attracted to both men and women with equal sexual vigour.
And I want to talk about DD. The first woman I kissed. I must have been 18, and I was dazzled by her. She wrote poetry. She sang, and she spoke Hindi with that wonderful UP tone. She was exactly what I wasn’t. She was graceful, well mannered and yet strangely free. And it was some day in December. What can I say, it was cold, the sun was shining. And everything about her was just perfect.
Here’s the strange thing. I went to a very feminist women’s college. The sort of place that talked about lesbians and bisexuality the way most people talk about making maggi in hostels. Commonplace. Nothing to be shocked about. And yet, on that day when I kissed DD, (well, to be honest it was a nice long smooch), they dropped their plates.
This is what I remember. I kissed her and thought, “Bloody hell. It’s all so soft!”. Everyone around us though looked at us with disgust or disguised envy. Sometimes it’s hard to tell the difference.
Our first kiss was the stuff of Hindi films. People whispering, us running off to the green rooms and making out. And yet, this was despite me knowing her boyfriend. I suppose he wouldn’t be as cool with it if she had kissed another man. But somehow her kissing me – a woman just seemed funny and strangely kinky to him. As though what we did was accidental, for his gaze. For his pleasure. Like we were going to give him his own porn film.
I don’t think he understood that she was beginning to love me more than she loved him.
It’s not just about the sex. It’s about love. What can I say? Is it really all that different sometimes?
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The boy friend bit sounds straight out of Friends episode. Ross, his first wife and her lesbian lover.
At first he thinks its kinky to have a threesome, only later to realize that his wife was falling in love with another.
I wonder what’s shittier though for someone in boyfriend’s shoes; falling in love with another or the gender bit?
On the other hand – Lovely post.
Hah! This reminds of that “I kissed a girl and I liked it” Song.
lovely post!
Sex and love are different right? Always thought it was.
Love + sex= all kinds of fantastic.
Just sex – to me,and this is just me, felt like abuse.
i am searching and researching from decades why straight men are so excited and eager to watch and even participate in lesbian sex. no gay man ever inclined to watch or participate in any damn thing which involves women. niether women of any type bothers about sexuality other than thier own. finally one sebior psychiatrist a women from Chandigarh solved the puzzle. it is the seual inadeqacy or part or full impotence or sometimes just Performnace anxiety which compels straight men to go for lesbian women. tahminna durrani the famous human rights activist from pakistan wrote a book “Blasphemy”. in this book she wrote that landed aristicracy of sind is quite fond of forcing thier wives and thier women farm labourers in forced lesbian sex. PARTLY is was a blessing for these women as thier fully impotent or partly impotent men are not harming or abusing them but other side of the picture is that these STRAIGHT women are forced to be lesbian. during course of my social work among sex workers almost all women sex workers said that thier AGED or dysfunctional clients insist them to play out lesbian drama with other women sex workers. from this fact i conclude that lesbian sex is superior to all other sex and women is the STRONG gender in comparison to men. becouse in our case thier is no such thing as IMPOTENCY or even sex related disease etc are also non-existant. even PAIN in also non-existant. ask any of our gay man friend how difficult it is to accomodate thier boy friends if they happens to be well endowned or on bigger size. becouse unlike vagina , the anus is not flexible enough. therefore i daily give lots of THANKS to my BHAGWAN especially bhagwan krishna as he made me a women and that to a gay women. Bhagwan given me best gift
loved this!