Dear Potential Partner,
For starters, I say partner because somehow ‘girlfriend’ really isn’t my thing.
But more importantly, there’s something you should know: I love you. I say this because after almost half a decade of pain and heartache, I feel my heart is ready for another leap of faith. I say this because I see people all around me waste day after day trying to ‘test the waters’, not realising that good time is slipping away. I say this because I know in my heart, that although I had loved with all my might once, a long time ago, I’ll do it again – this time with more learning and wisdom – and make it stay till the end of time. I say this because I want to see your pretty face every single day and suddenly nothing else would matter around us. I say this because I want to kiss your perfect lips every waking moment, till they are sore and hurting, because I’d rather show you, than tell you, how much you mean to me. I say this because I know you’re out there, and you’re looking for me too, and maybe this is just an attempt to get closer to you.
I say this because I want to wake up next to you every morning and not want to get out of bed – ever. I say this because I want you forever, and even though everyone has a different version of it, for me it means the next few lifetimes. I say this because I want to sneak up behind you on a warm sunny afternoon and make love to you till the wee hours of the night. I say this because you’re my yearning, and you’re my pleasure. I say this because I want to be tantalized by your touch in a public place where I can’t possibly pin you against a wall and gobble you up. I say this because I want to know what your dreams are, and make them ours along the way. I say this because I want my every pore to ache for you when you aren’t around, and every pore to ache when you are, because you’ll give me so much joy.
I say this because I want you to know that you will always be enough. I say this because I want to hold your mesmerizing face in my hands and look straight into your eyes and tell you that I adore you, that you are my life, my breath, my soul – because you are. I say this because you’re the one I want to grow old with. I say this because I can almost smell your beautiful hair on a windy evening. I say this because I want you to know that I’ll love you just as much on your bad hair days. I say this because I want you to know that you and I, together, are going to change the world in our own little way. I say this because just thinking of you gives me goosebumps. I say this because you complete me – and because I feel it in my bones. But most of all, I say this because you have inspired me, today, to write after months, and that means everything to me.
See me soon,
Me.