To the father I had and I lost,
Waking up with oils and you to clear that,
Calling it, ‘isme poori bhi tal sakte hain.’
You appreciated my beauty.
I know you were scared. To what may happen,
I learnt to defend myself because you not defended me,
I learnt how to tale medals by credit and be my own governing body:
I knew what my father wanted but was he scared about the patriarchy around me?

To the father I had and I lost,
The fear of not letting me out,
Was it the fear of men whom you knew,
But wanted to control me?

I understood know, you were abusive but still understood and used to the patriarchy to control me,
But now I know your worth, my father, I knew you would kill for me and get killed,
However, you are not here,
I craved for you to the men I dated,

The father was missing,
Because I had lost the rights to talk to you,
Atleast when I capable,
Now when I know, you are not there, dear father,
I know what you meant, because you saw life, you just lacked the courage,
You did lack the courage!
To the father I had and I lost!

Here’s your child taking what you meant now,
In the talks of 5D world soon to be the 10D world.
I forgive you, I forgive myself for hating you.. because It is a burden to me!

I am sorry for the struggle you could not speak,
life was not easy. Nor is it easy for me!
To the father I had but I lost.
I love you and the life you gave me!
I lost you but I found me!
I love you!